Believe me when I say this...

The worst of us hits,
With a strong fist,
So painful,
Damn,
I could never believe it.
I thought my life would be so easy,
But it isn't,
It’s so painful,
Sadly,
I wish I could make a stand than sit.
Nobody told me what to do in life,
Nobody stood next to me,
Nobody could understand the sights,
Understand that it’s hard to see,
The hardest par I ever shot,
The toughest fall I ever flopped,
The quickest bullet I heard pop,
And the worst part of all,
Is that I didn't want it to stop.

Look at me,
And tell me,
What I can become.
Listen to what I have to say,
Or even,
Hear it when I'm gone.
The story of my life,
It's so damn twisted,
That I should go see the doctor,
But I just want to be listened.
The things that I wanna say,
The way I should say them,
Is more powerful any day,
And it’s hard to believe in some.
It’s like a raven is talking to me,
Saying, “You should seek out for him,”
But it’s not God that I should look for,
But maybe it’s for God’s wisdom.
Now.
If you ever wanna hear me,
See what you can handle,
Then come to hear a story,
I'll go deeper than the mantle.
My life is good and bad,
The choices I moved from,
The reasons I became,
Are what I want to become.
They represent the star,
That shines so bright,
But that shine makes a shadow,
And loses all its might.

I could never go back,

Not to start from the beginning again,

But that’s not a bad idea,

Considering that I could just plan,
My in the next life,
Maybe I'll have a wife,
And kids that wanna play,
That bring them joy all day.
But the problem is this,
I want to be left alone,
Because the story is this,
You're not who I need to condone.
All of my differences,
Are quite unique,
The words I'm hitting you with,
Are just so damn deep.
Think about your life,
Think about everyday,
Every food you eat,
Every step you take.
Because everything you see,
It's what you make of it.
Everything you pray
Is what you believe with.
But I don't believe in praying,
Because I prayed enough,
I'm tired of looking and seeing,
Because I can't always be so tough.
Nobody wanted to ask me questions,
So now I cry in my room.
Would you want to be alone,
And be completely ignored?
Or do you want to be heard,
From a life that could've been torn?
I can't go on,
I can't dream,
Because every time I close my eyes,
It's just black for me.
There I said it,
So go ahead and judge me.
But always remember this,
You can't see what I see.
I don't wanna be disrespectful,
Or anything like that,
But I'm never gonna stop,
Or pause and press it flat.
But I put on a smile,
And look so happy,
But now you know,
The horror of my story.
And i just wanna be heard,
I just wanted to talk,
Maybe I can change,
Maybe...